On death and living
A very close friend of my family is dying of cancer. She is a 50ish mother of two who I have known since elementary school. I went to school with her son since fourth grade and was his roommate for quite a while. I know her.
My mother was dying of cancer many years ago, but she lived.
The question of why my friend's mom is dying of cancer (she may still live, but the odds are slim) and why my mom is still living has probably never been asked specifically, but has been asked in abstract since the beginning of time.
Add in the common view of the JudeoChristian God into the mix, and the question becomes even more difficult (or perhaps the common view becomes more difficult to hold).
I will probably mourn her loss as it will literally be a loss to this world. Her children will lose a mother; her husband will lose his wife; her friends will lose their friend. This world will be different, if ever so slightly in the big picture.
What I will try my hardest to avoid is mourning the loss of a view of God as a being who brings only happiness to those he favors. I try to avoid that belief as, rationally, it doesn't make sense to me. At the same time, I'm not sure I would be able to avoid "blaming" God if my wife or parents were to die tragically.
Ultimately, I want to use this situation to remind me to embrace what is important. I don't have much time left.
My mother was dying of cancer many years ago, but she lived.
The question of why my friend's mom is dying of cancer (she may still live, but the odds are slim) and why my mom is still living has probably never been asked specifically, but has been asked in abstract since the beginning of time.
Add in the common view of the JudeoChristian God into the mix, and the question becomes even more difficult (or perhaps the common view becomes more difficult to hold).
I will probably mourn her loss as it will literally be a loss to this world. Her children will lose a mother; her husband will lose his wife; her friends will lose their friend. This world will be different, if ever so slightly in the big picture.
What I will try my hardest to avoid is mourning the loss of a view of God as a being who brings only happiness to those he favors. I try to avoid that belief as, rationally, it doesn't make sense to me. At the same time, I'm not sure I would be able to avoid "blaming" God if my wife or parents were to die tragically.
Ultimately, I want to use this situation to remind me to embrace what is important. I don't have much time left.
posted by y at 8:17 PM
1 Comments:
My mom just told me last night. I hate that for their family and for the world. She is one amazing woman.
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